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The Quest Isn’t Self-Improvement. It’s Truth.

When you explore reality with curiosity and awe, self-improvement stops being the goal and becomes the natural byproduct of discovery.

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VRIŁŁERISM
September 05, 2025

WEEKLY MEDITATION

The goal of life isn’t to cling to one state of being. It’s not about holding onto happiness as if that’s the ultimate destination.

The real purpose is to fully experience the spectrum of emotions. Joy, sadness, anger, love, fear, peace. All of it.

But here’s the key, you’re not meant to get stuck in them. The power lies in your detachment.

To be human is to explore the psyche entirely. 

The frequency you live in doesn’t come from which emotion you’re feeling but rather it comes from the awareness that you are not the emotion at all. You are the one experiencing it. Watching it. 

The more you tie your identity to what you feel, the further peace slips away. Regardless of whether it feels “good” or “bad” 

The shift happens when you know yourself as the one watching the emotions, not being them. 

That’s non neediness. That’s detachment. And that’s what it really means to live in a high vibration.

God didn’t put you here to play God. He put you here to learn, to play your role, and to embody the unique set of gifts you’ve been given.

Your task is not to become all-knowing or all-powerful, but to max out your stats.

To run with the talents that are unique to YOU. And you only. That’s all He wants. To be fully confident in your being. 

And when you do that, you’re living exactly as you were meant to.

BY @THEVRILLER

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“The world is like a ride in an amusement park, and when you choose to go on it you think it's real because that's how powerful our minds are. Many people have been on the ride a long time, and they begin to wonder, "Hey, is this real, or is this just a ride?" And other people have remembered, and they come back to us and say, "Hey, don't worry; don't be afraid, ever, because this is just a ride." 

- Bill Hicks

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Why Self-Improvement Fails (And What Actually Works)

Ever notice how some people change their lives overnight?

A dude beats cancer and suddenly lives like every day is a gift. A religious convert drops decades-old addictions without looking back. And, this one’s weird but true, some people who get deep into the UFO phenomenon start living like monks. They cut out drinking, eat clean, exercise, and keep disciplined routines.

The first two examples make sense, but the high-level intelligence people going full monk mode, what's up with that?

Dr. Diana Pasulka, who is currently studying the intersection of religion, technology, and UFO beliefs, seems to think it's about a connection. A connection to some sort of deeper reality. And once established, they can't look back. They live their lives in order to maintain or even strengthen this connection.

The question is: Why them and not us?

Most of us have an inherent sense of what we should do: sleep better, eat better, exercise, cut down screen time. But we don’t. Instead, we negotiate with ourselves daily: “One more scroll. One more drink. I’ll start fresh on Monday.”

We try to brute force discipline with productivity hacks, morning routines, and guilt trips. And sometimes it works for a while. But eventually resistance shows up, and the cycle starts again.

The Real Problem: Resistance

The dirty secret of self-improvement is this: discipline alone doesn’t last. Because discipline is always a fight against resistance.

Resistance isn’t laziness. It’s your old programming. Culture, habits, dopamine loops, and comfort have wired you. And when you try to force your way out of it, you’re wrestling against decades of conditioning. No wonder it feels impossible.

But here’s what the cancer survivor, the religious convert, and the high-level intelligence people all have in common: they don’t wrestle with resistance anymore. They changed on a deeper level.

Enter the Forcing Function

A forcing function is an event, insight, or experience so profound that it rewires your programming. It’s not about habits. It’s about a sense of the wonders of reality.

When perspective shifts, behavior follows. Not because you “force” it, but because the old way no longer makes sense.

  • After a near-death experience, eating junk and wasting time feel insane.

  • After a spiritual awakening, addictions don’t tempt in the same way, they’re incompatible with the new self.

  • After a UFO researcher decides reality is stranger and deeper than we imagined, living carelessly just feels… stupid.

This is why some people change effortlessly while others grind themselves into burnout trying to “stay disciplined.” The former have a forcing function. The latter are still fighting resistance, which acts as forcing function in the opposite direction.

Why Reprogramming Beats Discipline

Think of it like this:

Trying to force habits without a fundamental shift is like swimming against a strong current. You can make progress, but it’s exhausting. Eventually, you give up.

A forcing function flips the current. Suddenly, you’re not swimming against resistance. You’re being carried by conviction. By a deep sense of wonder. A curiosity about the deeper levels of reality that can't be shut off.

That’s why a cancer survivor doesn’t need a productivity podcast to value sleep. Or why a religious convert doesn’t need a New Year’s resolution to drop destructive habits. Their programming shifted. Resistance dissolved.

Applicable to Anyone

You don’t have to believe in God, aliens, or fate to see the point.

  • The religious call it revelation or faith.

  • Atheists might call it an existential wake-up call.

  • Scientists might call it a paradigm shift

Labels don’t matter. What matters is that the change comes from the level of programming, not hacks.

So What Do You Do?

You can’t exactly schedule a near-death experience. But you can put yourself in places where perspective shifts are more likely:

  • Explore the weird edges of philosophy, science, or spirituality.

  • Spend time in silence. Journal. Question your assumptions.

  • Talk to people who’ve been through hell and come back transformed.

The goal isn’t to find the perfect morning routine. It’s to find your forcing function. The thing that makes all those routines obvious, effortless, and maybe even irrelevant.

The Point

Self-improvement hacks aren’t useless. But they’re secondary. The primary driver of lasting change is wonder.

Until you find your forcing function, you’ll keep wrestling with yourself. After you find it, the path almost walks itself.

You are no longer trying to become good-looking, successful, or intelligent. You are on a quest to figure out the underlying truth of reality. If that doesn't drive you to lead a good life, nothing will.

By @MJ